My Dearest Mother

I have always admired my mother and yet I feel like I have ever really been able to completely express this. I am not really sure what brings this all up, but alas I write. Perhaps if nothing else, this will give you insight of what it is like to be inside my head at 3 am when I am trying to go to bed! Like I was saying, I have always admired my mom. This admiration has gotten stronger over the past few years as I have watched her go through her divorce from my dad and care for me and my sister. Mom has always been an incredible strength and support in my life. On more than one occasion when I felt like there was no one who did support me I would be reminded of my mother's unconditional support and love. I never could fully understand how she could continue to love and support me, when for a long time, I did not love me. Oh, such is a mother's love. I know that despite some of my crazy (and down right stupid) decisions that she could not support, that she did support me! It is sometimes hard to see as a teenage (and young adult for that matter) the difference between someone supporting what you are doing and someone supporting you and I am sure that I made my mom's life a living hell at times (sorry Mom) by confusing these two actions! I am so thankful for her continual support! My mom is such a loving, understanding, compassionate, caring, creative, hard-working, strong women! I have never known another women like my mommy! As a new mother I think that I am looking at my mom in a different light. I am so thankful for all that she did for me and our family and for all that she has taught me over the years! Without my mom I know that I would not be able to be the mother that I am. I hope to be as good of a mom as my mother is to me. I hope that one day my children will be able to look up to me not only as their mother, but as their friend, like my mom is to me!